Whats you flavour?

As I stare blankly at my keypad, a rush of thoughts surges through my head. I have a whole lot on my mind lately, a lot of unanswered questions.

However, the one that perhaps stands out the most is the one that my ‘buddy’ (yes that’s what we shall refer to him) asked me this evening; “WHAT IS YOUR TYPE/FLAVOUR?”

You see, I’m getting to that age where you actually realize that there is no excuse anymore, that you are actually an adult. You look around you and all your mates are settling down, the wedding invites start coming in, baby showers left right and centre and well you look at your life (well mine anyway) and all you have is a great job, good friends and a loving family.

Don’t get me wrong, these are really great things to have in one’s life but at this stage you as k yourself, is this going to be my life? I’m I going to be that aunty that has the nice house and car and all the trimming but no husband or kids?

I think this is what they normally refer to as ‘the pressure’ phase.

You see, on the one hand I think it’s time for the settling and the baby thing because let’s face it, I’m not getting any younger and quite frankly, life gets a bit lonely.

And then on the other hand, (and this is usually my inner DIVA doing the thinking) I think what is the rush; enjoy life, you only live once! Why let a man and a baby cut your fun…! You’re not even ready, you still have a career to build and plenty more fishes to sample. LOL

However, perhaps the scariest aspect of this psychological turmoil finding the answer this simple but important question: “WHAT IS YOUR TYPE?” 

What IS my type?

What is it that I want from a man?

What can I offer a ‘life’ partner?

What can they offer me?

What virtues I’m I looking for in a man?

Height?  Religion? Bank balance? Built? Race?

What is my type?

It seemed so simple to answer until I actually attempted to and found out that in actuality I have never sat down to think this through!

Then it dawned on me…I DON’T KNOW WHAT IM LOOKING FOR!

I’m not even sure if I have been looking!

After I got over the shock of my reality, I become conscious of the fact that in the last two years, all my attention has been given to my career and building on it.

You’re probably thinking why it is a shocking realization; well I always thought I knew what I wanted without taking the time to access those thoughts. Since leaving University, I have not seriously entertained the idea of a love interest or perusing it to eternity.

The moral of the story is, if you want something or think you are ready for something, take the time to evaluate and analyze why you want that thing and more importantly, What it is you are actually looking for…do not rush!