As I stare blankly at my keypad, a rush of thoughts surges
through my head. I have a whole lot on my mind lately, a lot of unanswered
questions.
However, the one that perhaps stands out the most is the one
that my ‘buddy’ (yes that’s what we shall refer to him) asked me this evening; “WHAT
IS YOUR TYPE/FLAVOUR?”
You see, I’m getting to that age where you actually realize that
there is no excuse anymore, that you are actually an adult. You look around you
and all your mates are settling down, the wedding invites start coming in, baby
showers left right and centre and well you look at your life (well mine anyway)
and all you have is a great job, good friends and a loving family.
Don’t get me wrong, these are really great things to have in
one’s life but at this stage you as k yourself, is this going to be my life? I’m
I going to be that aunty that has the nice house and car and all the trimming
but no husband or kids?
I think this is what they normally refer to as ‘the pressure’
phase.
You see, on the one hand I think it’s time for the settling
and the baby thing because let’s face it, I’m not getting any younger and quite
frankly, life gets a bit lonely.
And then on the other hand, (and this is usually my inner
DIVA doing the thinking) I think what is the rush; enjoy life, you only live
once! Why let a man and a baby cut your fun…! You’re not even ready, you still
have a career to build and plenty more fishes to sample. LOL
However, perhaps the scariest aspect of this psychological turmoil
finding the answer this simple but important question: “WHAT IS YOUR TYPE?”
What IS my type?
What is it that I want from a man?
What can I offer a ‘life’ partner?
What can they offer me?
What virtues I’m I looking for in a
man?
Height? Religion? Bank balance? Built? Race?
What is my type?
It seemed so simple to answer until I actually attempted to
and found out that in actuality I have never sat down to think this through!
Then it dawned on me…I DON’T KNOW WHAT IM LOOKING FOR!
I’m not even sure if I have been looking!
After I got over the shock of my reality, I become conscious
of the fact that in the last two years, all my attention has been given to my
career and building on it.
You’re probably thinking why it is a shocking realization;
well I always thought I knew what I wanted without taking the time to access
those thoughts. Since leaving University, I have not seriously entertained the
idea of a love interest or perusing it to eternity.
The moral of the story is, if you want something or think
you are ready for something, take the time to evaluate and analyze why you want
that thing and more importantly, What it is you are actually looking for…do not
rush!
